Winter Days

...My Mum died a few months ago... I don't think it matters how old you are, or what your own circumstances, when both your parents die you are the top of the tree....There is no longer anyone whose life I come first in...There is just me. I manage well and few would know what day to day living is like for me. Few would even want to know. Sure they care, but not enough to actually spend time with me. My blogs probably indicate that I'm melancholy and low most of the time... I'm not. I'm just being thoughtful and trying to understand my place in the world. I present happy and well adjusted to my circumstances.But I have no one close. No one I can turn to who I know will love and support unconditionaly.No one to share the happy times with...I go places alone. I miss out on going to other things cause they are not designed for ' ones '....they are designed for couples and families. I am not part of either. I truly don't believe that I am alone in this. but that is cold comfort...