autumn leaves

..I think autumn is my favourite season. The Oak tree in the garden has started to shed its leaves and sometimes its like ' party at my place ' when the wind blows. I don't mind though.I love watching them swirling around...I've been reading some other blogs and wish I could be half as witty as some. When I type this at night I wonder why I'm doing it. does anyone else actually read it ? I know one person does and was kind enough to send me good wishes. Or is it more about me just trying to work it out in my own head . Whats that saying I read some time back...we come into the world alone and we leave alone. We are meant to spend the time in between together or so we tell each other.... Surrounded by caring friends I still feel alone at times. and then I read Jessie Watsons blog and have nothing but admiration for her round the world sail.Wow..that really is ' alone '. I would love to meet her and talk with her. such an inspiration. Goodnight me and goodnight anyone else that is there ......

third friend in third month....

Dear Pauline today got her wings and has flowen away... I think I have more friends dead than alive. Its a crazy feeling. Why am I still here... the melanoma ripped thru these three . they all left young families ...And selfishly they all left me alone.. Still battleing..still here on my own... Just sometimes in a very small deep down part of me , I want to go to....reality ..of course I dnn't mean that, but why... theres no answers... tomorrow will be a better day... Rest in Peace Ricarda, Bronwyn and Pauline... free fom this disease at last.....